Checking in.....

I think I've been a little busy this summer with the randomness of my posting! I've got the next three days off of work. However today is jammed with multiple errands (I know I know I need to get going here seeing as how it's almost 10:00), tomorrow is major cleaning day in this house (I love the cats but man can they make a mess), then Friday I'm celebrating my sister's birthday by having her and the rest of my fam over for a BBQ. So I will enjoy Friday because I'll be cooking and baking all day.

Something has been bugging me. There is someone who has left an anonymous comment on my blog and I've got no idea who. So Mr/Mrs anonymous commenter....perhaps you could reveal yourself or at least give me some more hints! I'm so not good with this type of stuff. Patience is not one of my giftings!

As for God and I......I don't know. I'm really having self esteem issues...this has been an ongoing thing in my life. I'm just admitting it now though. I may have already written about this I can't remember. I'm trying though.....God keeps pulling me to Psalm 139. You know the one about knitting you together in your mother's womb. Some days I'm like "aw God you do love me and I am wonderfully made" other days I'm like "wow what were you thinking God knitting me together in this way, could you not have planned for me to be a little less _______ "(insert whatever I'm not impressed with that day). It's a lovely battle! It will be one that I overcome eventually. It's nuts that this has been more of a struggle for me than my sex abuse. However I know some of this is a direct cause of being sexually abused so I'm still on that journey as well. Oh the ramblings that are occurring on this page right now :) Can't wait to head back to counselling next week. I think I'm in need for another dose of reality!

Until then I will continue to fill my spare minutes daydreaming of our next vacation. The Constable family has decided that we are off to Disney World in May. That's right, out of all the places Jason and I want to go before we do the kid thing Disney World would be top on our list (at least we agree). Yes, I've already been there lots in life. However I've never done the Disney vacation where they pick you up from the airport and you're on only Disney property the whole time. We really wanted that experience of staying in their hotels (the value ones of course...hee hee hee), eating on their meal plan (again the value one) and of course hitting up all 4 parks and 2 water parks. Oh I can't wait to see the big kid I live with in that place. It was so magical going to Disneyland with Jason that I can't even begin to explain how excited I get thinking about Disney World because it's way bigger and better. Anyways, I need to stop the random ramblings for the day, especially this one or I'm going to be off looking up more info on disney vacations and I need to get going.

Hope you all are having a great summer.......