Long time gone.....
Man there are a lot of you out there who actually read this thing. It's amazing to me how many of you ask me when I'm going to update this. The truth is I've been wanting to give it up. I've been wanting to just delete it. I'm not sure why though. However I just don't bother deleting it because something just doesn't seem right about that to me.
There's been way too much going on for me to rant about it here. I can say this about it all though..... although I see God's hand all over everything that's crappy right now I'm still not okay with it. I'm having a hard time processing where I'm at right now because I've never been here. This is all new territory for me and my brain and I'm not exactly sure what to do with it all just like those of you who are closest to me right now who don't know what to do with me. My poor, patient husband said to me last night during one of my new found anxiety attacks (loving those) that he wishes he could just tell me to suck it up but realizes that this is so real to me right now that that would do more damage than good. Ha ha ha shows how far we've come in 5 years because back then he would have just said it.
Anyways, my heart has been heavier than it ever has over the past 5 weeks. Today is the (although I hate this saying) straw that breaks the camel's back. Tomorrow my mom will be putting Bob (our dog that we've had for about 15 years) to sleep. Although it's the last thing that my mom, sister and I want we realize it's necessary. The poor guy is just not doing so hot right now and hasn't really been doing well for a few months now. However we kept hanging on. We kept saying that we'd leave him be until we thought he was suffering and now he seems to be at that point. My heart is broken and I'm sure this is heightened because of other things from these past few weeks that I haven't dealt with, but it still sucks.
So in honour of Bob Putty (this is what I wanted to call him but I got overruled) Wilson here's a few pics of him. I've got loads more but don't have a scanner so these will have to do. 
posted by Erin @ 9:12 AM
6 Comments:
thanks for sharing these sweet pictures of Bob...he seems amazing. i care...and i wish you didn't have to go through this.
Debie
I'm so sorry! I met Bob and he was a happy dog. It's amazing how close we get to our pets! I was upset for awhile when we had to put Fluffy (my first cat) down.
Erin, I am really sorry you are going through so much right now...I knwo about the anxiety attacks and they suck...Please call if you need to talk or vent or cry...I am here for you...I know you are strong and will get through all this even though there seems to be no end right now. I will be praying for you and Jaspn. Love you. ML
Hey Erin, I'm sorry you're having a sucky time! I'll be praying for you!
In those two pictures of you and him it looks like he's smiling! Those are great. He looks so different in those older pictures. Even from just a year ago. He really hadn't been himself for a while.
Deb- as always thanks for the comment :) he was amazing. I can't even explain him in a way that would make sense unless you knew him. He just seemed to be so intune to us all the time. It was always about us no matter what. Anyways, he was a gift and I'm so thankful he landed at our house!
Rachel- I'm sorry that you know what this is like. It is hard. We do certainly get close to our pets.
ML-thanks for keeping on top of checking in on us. We relaly appreciate it! Things are pretty sucky right now but I know there's a light at the end of this long dark tunnel otherwise I would have turned around a long time ago :) Love you too!
Nikki- Thanks for the prayers, I can sure use them :)
Lindsay- I'll email you those two pics. He does look like he's smiling huh? You're right he hadn't been himself for a while. Man this is going to suck going to mom's again without him barking that excited yet annoying bark :) Poooorrrrr Nee
Post a Comment
<< Home